Dec 30, 2018 · 3 min read
I hope wherever you are, you are at peace. I hope you are able to walk, run and even fly. I am sorry if you suffered and I am sorry that I couldn’t tell or stop it if you did. It wasn’t easy for all of us to see you so helpless in the hospital, at the very least it made us very helpless. But we were all there with you in your last days.
Anish made you a drawing on your birthday I hope you got to see that. Kuttu, Anmol, and I made you a poster that was reminiscent of all the good times you had, and I gave you a kiss. I am sorry I didn’t give you more than one. But we were all there with you and I hope you knew that. We all miss you and realize that this feeling of missing is something we have to live with.
We will no longer hear ‘aum’ echoing in your voice, the number of cloves at home will be intact, there will be no one who will ask us to get thuglak or any magazine when we step out. These are things we need to learn to live without, but what we do have is our memories and nobody can take that away from us.
When you were placed in the hall in a casket I tried really hard not to look. I really did. I didn’t want that to be my last memory of you. Even on that night, Pati slept next to you. You must know Pati is being incredibly strong, it is not my place and I know you were aware, but you were a very lucky man. I think we are all lucky to have had you part of our lives. Even if we didn’t acknowledge or express it enough, we all feel incredibly lucky for being part of your life and for you have been part of ours.
You are one of the kindest and strongest gentlemen that I have ever known, and I have learnt a lot from you. Even in your passing, you taught me a great deal and I will be eternally grateful to you for that. Thank you for teaching me that no matter how important certain things, some things are just too petty in life. Things that are meant to happen will happen no matter what.
Also Thatha, Kuttu, Anmol and I took a few clothes of yours. I hope you don’t mind. In fact, I am wearing your pink kurta right now and it is really comfortable.
I hope when you look down on the lives that we have today, it makes you proud, content and happy. I hope you continue to shine upon us.
I hope there are a lot of biscuits, murukkus, bovonto and everything that you want to eat wherever you are Thatha. Eat as much as you want and nobody will stop you.
We all love you a lot and always will. ❤
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